too much not enough

i live a life of up and down
of sometimes doing well
feeling left so far behind
i mostly quake and quell

will the light ever shine
or will i keep pretending
will this struggle ever end
or is it never ending

i am lucky all in all
i've done what i have done
i'm not finished by a lot
i have more miles to run

i question though most every day
all my choices made
when i was young oh how they flew
through lifes confusing maze

yes i have had some moments great
and others filled with shame
all of them so fully stuck
forever to my name

now i sit here still in debt
still smarting from my past
praying for the light to shine
for lasting ease at last

i know that there are those who have
not even clothes to wear
starving homeless sick alone
with no one there to care

yes i know that i was born
beneath a lucky star
that i am here right where i am
through luck and help so far

still deep inside my light shines bright
i have much more to do
i must break free from not enough
i know what love can do

love's all i have when all is done
when sorrows loss is known
sadness is like clinging here
a puppy to his bone

today i make another stride
toward my unknown ryme
until that time i'll always work
to leave my griefs behind