puzzlement

an incident occured
a flash of
my dark side
jumped into the arena
surreal
as if
watching
a rememberance
or another
me
on the street
in new york
young people
angry with me
and my temper
on the brink
ready
to do
to take
unreasonable action
i did not
i was frightened
of myself
unable to react in
any way
but
with
awful patronzing
empty threats
empty me

when i think
i have the answers
another question
another
sadness

who is this man
from whom
i am speaking
who is this
who
is acting so
badly
so
unknown
yet known

i walked away
sad
with no excuses
much remorse
and
angry