having to pee

time sort of
speeds up then
running me about
interrupting my sleep with dreams
of
letting go
ahhh
but i still have to
take that break
standing
or sitting
meditating
in what's
written on the
wall
names proclaiming
favors
with
cell phone numbers
if
your out somewhere
it could happen that
if you're
a guy
you might want to direct your attention to
stream cleaning
the urinal
or if you're sitting down
maybe wondering why you keep your keys in your
underwear

i have to go
this instant
this sensation
is
after all
one that i imagine
most of us
experience
daily
many times
and yet
we must hide
not look down
or look up to the cieling
if there is
nothing to read
on
the wall
in front of you

i think mirrors are a bad idea
i don't like peeing on ice
or those
disks that
smell
like mothballs

i like to draw in the snow.
those of you who sit
may have a hard time
doing that

i used to like peeing
on anthills
but one afternoon
i wondered how I might feel
if some giant
hose
was drownding
me
in urine

god it's awful
sitting in traffic
having to pee
it seems
for ever
an eternity
can't listen to music
or talk
start to think of maybe
a cardboard cup
anything


then
the release
ahhh there is
that
yes
that final release
when
all is well
and it goes on and on and on
and on and on and on
and on
and
on
and on and on and on
infinite bliss
how dissapointing
when it stops
at last

now i'm going

can't wait
i can't

bye