Sunshine and Sweat

you know

...back in the day....

i was always pissed off about something

i was mad

i was raging inside

i would treck myself

deep into the forest

i would scream

WHY!!!!

as loud as i could

i would cry
like a

lost boy

i wanted the world to be fun

like it was

when i was a child

my dad protecting us

my mom

sick all the time

telling us

i love you

every chance she had

at the kitchen table

we would mix

our ground beef gravy

with the corn and the peas

sometimes

canned

green beans

we smelled of

"sweat and sunshine"

as my friend

Lucket

says

of her grandchildren

i remember you

sweat and sunshine

swinging and singing

on the rope

flying

your braids coming out

your little pink sundress

dirty undies

free

and

i look back

at my life

and

i look back

at you

and

i see

childhood

i see
you

there are no disguises

no

masks

no word

will sway

my

knowledge

or stay

my observation

your blood is mine

your blood

is your moms

and

that makes

your blood

yours

you are

pumped through our hearts

i feel it

you sing in the bathtub

and

i know your voice

i know

the who

of you

life

is

always
a mirror

that we

all

look into

who is that

we see

i think

we always know the answers

and
it is

the answers that

are the

most

trouble